My girlfriend and I are growing apart, we were never incredibly close to begin with I think. I've never been good at conversation, I'm stone most times- quiet, immobile. I always have been. She's fire. Passionate, loud, that's what I love and hate about her, she drives me insane and I love her for it but I feel like the distance is too impassible by now. I'm going off to college, and we've barely spoken recently, it's both our faults, but we're falling out of love and I'm almost okay with it.
if you are okay with it, then let it be okay. you two will come together again if it’s meant to happen. sometimes distance is necessary and flows in like a tide, only to ebb back, leaving sand to tread on and join hands again. there is no shame in falling out of love. the only thing to be missed is what has been, and maybe what could have been. but your lives are just starting. find other lovers, who are stone, and steel and ice and mortar. if she is fire, don’t try to squeeze water out of her. it is impossible. go to college, take new lovers, kiss and fuck and make love and maybe keep a tiny space in your heart open for her. one day she may burst back into your life, and you’ll want to be ready. but don’t be afraid to find other elements, and to learn other people and their bodies. you will always be so important to each other, and marks on each others’ maps. and that’s the best gift ever. xx